Over the years, I’ve had a chance to pray with many pastors and Christian leaders. A frequent theme from those times is the feeling of many of these men and women (mostly men, for whatever reason) of being a fraud. It is not uncommon for leaders to feel unworthy of the respect and trust that is invested in them. The Apostle Paul seems to have some of those same feelings when he said,
For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing . . . So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? (Romans 7:18-24)
The answer is comforting. The grace of God delivers through Christ.
In spite of that reality, the feelings persist for many of us, perhaps most. Maybe that is as it should be. When we acknowledge we are false, Jesus can be our one true thing.