The works of faith, warfare works that shame the darkness and vanquish wickedness, are born in the prayer room, not in the boardroom.
The last of five parts
Beholding His Hands and His Feet
â€œâ€¦Because you have seen Me, have you believed? Blessed are they who did not see, and yet believed.â€
~~Jesus to Thomas, the one who doubted
Jesus commanded there be love among us, not just warm affection, but love that demands we, in honesty and humility, reckon others more important than ourselves. Such reckoning insists that we live and love in spite of our wounds â€”beyond them. Only then can we be one even as the Father and the Son are One. We die to our wounds, not from them so the church might live and Christ through her.
So, the church lives even with all her scars. It is to be expected. After all, so did her Lord. He stood before His frightened, grieving disciples, declaring victory by His wounds. In the book of Revelation, He stood beside the throne of heaven as the Lamb who was slain. Similarly, the church stands alive and strong before the unbelieving world, bearing the wounds of her forgiven sin. Faithful wounds, wounds of expectation, judgment, and separation; wounds of silence, malice, disunityâ€”they should have bled her long ago. But wounds cannot destroy she for whom Christ died any more than they could destroy Christ Himself. He gave her His life to live so that she could stand before the world as a testimony of Him, and before the throne of heaven as a spotless bride.
Fourth of five parts begun on June 23, 2005The Wounds of Separation
But we, brethren, having been bereft of you for a short while–in person, not in spirit — were all the more eager with great desire to see your face.
~~Paul, to the Thessalonians
Belonging is the great joy of community, but it carries the risk of pain, the pain of separation. You can hear it in Paul’s writing over and over again, poignantly in his letter to the church in Thessalonica, desperately in his last correspondence to Timothy, his beloved partner in Christ.
To Timothy he wrote, “Make every effort to come to me soon, for Demas has deserted me. Only Luke is with me. Come before winter” For Paul, the winter of his heart had already tightened its icy grip. Loneliness had overtaken him. Memories of the faces of those with whom he had shared the Lord’s Table were all he had left. They both comforted and haunted him; both healed and wounded. Separation is the changing of the season of relationship. Being separated awakens the deepest fondness, and the most profound regret in the hearts of those who have taken the risk of relationship. Being a part of something makes painful being apart from it.
It should come as no surprise that the bonds of love are painful. That was how it was with the Master who gave His life out of love for human beings. Deep love always cuts deeply.
My own silliness makes the point. When Super Glue first came on the market, I had no idea of the strength of the stuff. Impulsively, I put a drop on my index finger and grabbed the finger of my unsuspecting wife. We were instantly fused! No twisting, prying or pulling would release the hold of the glue that bonded us. Together (that was, after all, our only option) we made our way to the place where the razor blades were kept so I could carefully cut us apart. Because it was my foolishness that caused our dilemma, I made sure that it was my flesh that suffered the cutting.
The bonds that are the evidence of love in the body of Christ are like that. Once the promise of growing relationship becomes an authentic bond, separation only comes at the expense of a piece of the heart. The more people that come and go from among us the more acutely aware I become that the desire for relationship is intensifying. Perhaps, finally, love is awakening my heart. That is why it hurts.
The corporate name of our home church network is, “The Summit Fellowships.” It is nothing. The name is no more the church than a dot on a road map is a city. Nevertheless, some have left us and declared they are leaving “Summit,” meaning they are leaving an institution. This, I presume, is a way of making separation easier because institutions don’t bleed, people do. Those who yearn for relationship will suffer a wound when it vanishes. Theresa of Avila said, “I have no defense against affection.” Thus, as we learn what it is to be the church, we will learn what it is to be wounded.
The third of five parts beginning on June 23, 2005The Wounds of Judgmentâ€œâ€¦But you, why do you judge your brother? Or again, why do you regard your brother with contempt?â€
~~Paul, the Apostle
The cabinetmaker surveyed our kitchen. He tapped the wall here, checked the plumbing there. Then he took a measuring tape from his pocket, measured a length, replaced the tape, jotted down the measurement on a little note pad, took the tape from his pocket and repeated the process. Measure. Take note. Measure again.
Beware the brethren who carry a ruler in their pocket! Such a tool is the craftsmanâ€™s equipment, not the instrument of fellowship. Critical spirits have secret standards. They evaluate. Quality control is their specialty. Do you measure up? Do I? As we wonder, we are ever focused on ourselves and, often, we seek relief from judgment by hiding ourselves from our judges whoever they may be. The one who feels judgment withdraws. The one with the ruler in his pocket feels rejected and isolated. Defensiveness divides the church.
Jesus chose the company of substandard human beings. He knew what they ought to be, but accepted them where they were. In relationships, faith means accepting people where they are. It should be left to Jesus to grieve (though I doubt He does) over where they ought to be. We are to rejoice (with Jesus, I think) over where they will be. As Paul showed by his example, we are to refuse judgment, and instead, offer a gift: the confidence that He who began a good work in our brethren will be faithful to complete it until the day of Christ Jesus. In our woundedness we are to have this confidence in the wounded. This is the life of the church.
The most eloquent altar call is the gathering of believers.
The most compelling presentation of the gospel is that they love one another.
Second of five parts begun on 6/23/05The Wounds of Faithfulness
For out of much affliction and anguish of heart I wrote to you with many tears; not that you should be made sorrowful, but that you might know the love which I have for you.~Paul, the Apostle
â€œHe began to give them his attention, expecting to receive something from them. But Peter said, â€˜I do not possess silver and gold, but what I do have I give you.â€
~~The Acts of the Church
We think we know what we need. Sometimes we even think we know from whom we can get it so we turn our attention to a brother or sister who, unfortunately, is not Simon Peter. We look expectantly upon another, hand outstretched, and demand alms.
Expectancy can be the anticipation of an awaited eventâ€”the Christmas of our heartsâ€”or expectancy can presume upon the favor or ability of our brethren. My brother expects a thing from me, but I cannot (though he suspects I will not) perform. His expectations have become for me a prison. I must be what he wants me to be. He insists upon it. It does not occur to him that I may be better suited to his needs than to his expectations. He demands alms, while excluding wholeness.
We are both wounded and afflictedâ€”he by disappointment in me, and I by a feeling of failure. At least in our injury we are brothers.
It was through a small boy that the multitudes were fed. He had little to give, but at the touch of the Eternal Provider it became what was needed. What he had was broken and shared. So it is with the body. Though what we have is broken, in our brokenness we can share and live.